Said my perfectionism to me.
Said me to you.
Writing helps me log the low points -- the battles lost in my fist fight against Perfectionism. Writing is a log of the time where my inner conflict gave way to the exhaustion of "shoulda." (I'm Southern, so you might just say "should have.")
I talked to Matt yesterday about how I felt so behind in my goals and motivation. I made a list of everything that needed to be fixed NOW, but then I got overwhelmed so I drank a beer which wasn't even enjoyable because I was bloated which just reminded me of the time I used to drink a gallon of water a day and was in the best shape of my life.
It's exhausting
What Matt told me, then, is "everything you do you do at 100%... well, you do it at 100% or 0%."
Can you relate?
A vision of my 100%s flashed through my mind: running a marathon, getting injured, getting my MBA, embracing minimalism, doing 4 Whole30s...
Then a vision of my 0%s flashed through my mind: not exercising for 2 weeks, not eating my vegetables, not water coloring every day, not sticking to my New Years resolutions...
It's an On/Off switch and damn does it feel good to be On!
But damn does it feel low to be on Off.
Off is okay sometimes, but other times Off is keeping away the dreams.
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